Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Was it the End or..


"In The Eeend, It doesnt even matttter.." Linkin Park was playin a little too loud in background, I picked up my cell to lessen the volume a bit, "Oye Saale!!Sun le gana, gaiyo baad me jab main chala jaunga tab.." and my fingers just stopped on the volume keys without pressing them.

'Doesn't it really matter?', I thought. When I went to college, I initially missed my school days. But, I started loving college and school memories faded gradually. I really never thought about being seperated from those friends which i had made for a lifetime there and I wondered it was exactly how I used to feel about my friends in highschool.
But, let's face the truth..How many friends from my school time I visit now? 2, hardly 3. And now, when I am busy with my career how much time do I take out for my college friends? Friends!! In fact How much time, do i take out for my Family? Naah.. Crap! I am in touch with many of those through FB, mails etc. n we do talk on phone at times.
'Yes, I am a good Man. I keep in touch with my friends.', The thought gave me a slight relief.

'But, What did we talk about? Our careers, our future plans, memories of our past time spent together!! That's it? Do we really connect now, the way we used to? Is being in touch has just become a formality? Expressions have got limited to 'Like' button of Fb only, I guess. Have all of us become great actors to fake friendhip or Love for that matter or have we just accepted the fact that nothing or noone is there to stay in our lives permanently.' I was lost in the thoughts and a pat from my friend on my shoulder suddenly brought me back from my trans. "Chal Yaar! See ya, Shaadi me aa rha hai tu.. Koi bahna nahi chalega.". I nodded, well aware of the fact that other than his marriage this might be the last time I am seeing this guy. Gave him a tight hug, a tear rolled out from my eye n bade him goodbye.

It hurt. Getting seperated from a friend definitely hurts. Well, it was the end of a chapter for me, indeed a very wonderful one and I won't say it doesn't matter and in fact it isn't the end of our relation either.. The cell was now playing "Emptiness" in the background..